just a little midnight sketching.

I'm only motivated by anger.
To be my best
or merely
drive off a cliff.

Regardless, both are the same.
You see, free falling
and persevering are exactly the same
should involve no other effort
than to be yourself
but
ends up being fueled by rage.

I'm only motivated by anger.
And this is probably how it is
always going to be.

i hope you know how much you kill me, because you do.

It's like a hopeless ringing
which does not stop.
I think it does.
But
your're always there to remind me
it's not.

Helpless fruit fly
hopeless and lost
without cause
without life
because
your're always there to remind me
that I'm nothing more.

You dim the light
you kill the spark
you smoother the flame
you drown the child
your're always there to remind me,
that you aren't going away.

So today has just been one of those days ya know? Like the ones where you walk around numb unmoved by joy, and definitely not pain. Nothing really matters.

Anyways, today during calculus 3 I was doodling and ended up forming this image; where a bottle of pills are being poured into what seemingly looks like a woman's mouth. 

As I was in the process of uploading this doodle, I copied it into Windows' Paint. And what you see before you is the product:

It's all just a metaphor...