I miss someone that I know I shouldn't
a boy that told me he couldn't
he couldn't?

Up until now, I said wouldn't.

Wouldn't fall into that empty hole
sliding down the slippery slope
tangling in the roots, the dirt
rubbing on my skin
waves of dust piercing through my eyes
slithers of blackness crawling under my nails,
but worst of all
I know now
that I never escaped that hole.

Merely imagined a place
where everything was
alright
content
but now
my walls are collapsing.